Two years ago today.
Two years ago today I woke up and thought I was still married.
I experienced the biggest shock in my life.
I looked at my children as if they had lost their future.
I crumbled to my knees more than once.
I had all semblance of control I thought I had, ripped out of my hands, without a say.
I felt the deepest emotional pain of my life.
I saw my world and foundation torn to shreds in a moment.
I said goodbye to my life partner.
And… two years ago today I began a new life.
I saw and felt kindness and love in ways I’d never experienced.
I realized what people would do for me and my children, instantly and without me asking.
I took my first step as a single parent.
I held friends and family in my arms over and over. And they held me.
I heard the phone ring all day.
I watched my children navigate the water of their new world. And not drown.
I realized how much a pet can mean to a person. And vice versa.
I understood what a friend was.
I knew what it meant to be loved by other human beings unconditionally. And to love them unconditionally.
I shared sorrow, pain, fear, anger, disbelief, numbness, and love with others.
My heart broke, but it broke open.
I love you Mark. We miss you. We are doing really well. But you already know that.